I had a great time today with my besties, you girls had brighten up my day.
although i didnt share anything about my another side of emotion,
but i think its still the best for tonight,
because i know that if i said,
it will spoil the whole atmosphere...
~Seoul Garden~nice and not bad to eat,
next time wanna go again
* rou darling next time we go k? ^^ *
my besties of my uni lifealthough we seldom contact after we graduated
but we know and we understand that true friendship will last
we learn to accept each other's weaknesses in the past 4 years
so, that is what makes us always stay together. =)
today, my emotion is in calm condition, compare to yesterday.
yesterday i was so tempted to update blog,
but i didnt type out any word,
for i know when i get emotions,
i will non stop writing and i dont care anything,
just type out everything in my heart.
at last, i overcame the temptation of update blog in bad emotion.
i am very happy when i know my friends around are protecting me,
they are just like the angels that God had sent to me.
i really thank God that He sent them.
to those who read my blog, here are my words for you:
sin huey & pui mun: thanks for knocking the door, but im sorry that i rejected your care at that time. coz i dont think i able to talk. if that time i start to speak, i will fail to control myself.
sin huey: thanks for being there for me when i needed to talk, thanks for keep assuring me that im not alone.
james: thanks for sms-ed with me when i ran away, thanks for calling me to go back, thanks for encouraging me. all these while, thanks for keep reminding me not to skip my qt as im not able to skip. XD
rou: thanks for blocking in front of me, it maybe look funny but i appreciated that. thanks for understands me just at the moment when you saw my face, i know you are not good in comforting people, but you use ur supporting action to support me, thank you.
nic: you are always stand behind me and support me, and thanks for spending time with me. i enjoy going out with u and henri, coz its so special that my 2 older brothers are protecting me, its so comfortable. no ned to hide, no ned to wear mask, jus be myself.
irene: your padding on my shoulder shown how much u cared for me, thank you.
dear all, i promise that i will be stronger,
by His grace that i could continue living,
so live a life for Him but not myself.
有些话我想说，
可不可以不要再伤害我？
我已经很努力地去忘记。
为什么总是要我从你口中再次听见那些我曾经从你口中听过的承诺？
我曾经陪你走过你最落魄的日子，
我曾经陪你走过日晒雨淋的日子，
我曾经陪你走过那些难熬的日子。
你刚买屋子的时候，那间屋子是多么的零乱和肮脏，
十年没有住人的屋子，里面的灰尘是多么地厚。
我鼻子敏感，有灰尘的地方我会一直打喷嚏，
可是我还是在那段期间，到那间屋子收拾垃圾，
弄得满脸灰尘，满手黑黑的。
收拾之后，就要开始洗屋子，
你可否记得我刷厨房的时候，被tina水弄到手脱皮，
拿刷子刷到指甲裂开，被割伤等等等等。
还有很多其他的事件，可是我不想要再提了。
可是你记得吗？一点点有吗？
我不要求你记得全部，我只要求你可以记得一点点，
记得我曾经的付出，然后不要再伤害我，
就这样简单而已。
用我曾经的付出来还换取你一点点的良心，
只要求你不要再伤害我，这样不过分吧！
要亲密，请滚到远远去。
请不要在我眼前，亲亲我我，抱来抱去。
请不要在大庭广众跟另一个女人说出那些你曾经对我说过的承诺，
从你的口中听两遍，而且是说给两个不同的人听，令我觉得恶心。
如果我妨碍了你们，请告诉我，我会直接离开petra，
回去我原来的生活，就当我从来没有跟winnie来过petra,
从来没有认识过你，更从来没有在一间叫petra的教会事奉过。
This is my 'must-order' item in Zanmai. XD
Love you-all!!!!
