A memorable trip~

I like this pic!

we took this at a field behind the beach..
to be honest, i love going out trip with u guys...
lets have another round soon ok?
P.S: i already start planning!! =)


The most 'lady' picture that I had.. @.@
just simply because of the hat! ahahha


this pic is just so nice right?
of course not me. but the feeling and the overall for this pic...
Rou took this for me,
and i love this pic a lot!

I love to sing...

Dear Aijalonians...

This song fest would not be a wonderful one if any of you were missing..

truly its a joy for us to rejoice in Him,

but lets remember that we sing for the Lord,

not for ourselves...

Congratulations to all Aijalonians,

thanks for all your HEARTS that willing to sing,

thanks for the TIME that you willing to spend with us,

thanks for using the WONDERFUL voice that God gave us...

This year, im actually very blessed with my voice...

I didnt stop eating spicy food;

I didnt stop eating cold desserts;

I didnt purposely avoid eating durian.

but yet, i dont have sore throat at all...

=)

Thank You Lord~

New header

Thank you my darling, Rou~

=)

i always love your artwork...

Graduation 22082010

WE MADE IT! OPS... HAHHA

I personally love this pic very very much~

My parent..

A gift from Nic~

this is fron Henri~

Chinese Studies Production ><

my hair is so messy, because i took away the mortar board d... like soh poh..

Thanks for coming... <3>

My dear,

Thanks for the flowers~

Thanks for coming~

Thanks for walking around with me under the hot sun~

Thanks for helping me take picture~

MUACKS!!

I think thats enough lah~~

too many pictures d..

lazy to upload so many of them~~

go to my facebook and check out the photos la~

PS: not much words about the convo, pictures can tell most of the things..

PPS: Thanks to Natalie, she is the one who encourage me to attend and helped me to solve my problem so that i could make it. Thanks~ Love ya!

weakness

Family is my weakness, the struggle.

Lord, what do You want me to do?
please show me the way Lord,
discipline me Lord,
to seek You.
Amen.

Psalm 46:10

"Be still and know I am God."

this isnt easy for a human being to do it every single minute.

...

At least, i find that it is not easy at all.

...

We tend to do things in our own way;

make decisions based on our own opinion;
talk to other people using our own words.

but yet,

we should have ask the guidence and wisdom from God,

before we do anything.

...

yes, we all know this is the correct way.

but, how many people will acknowledge God before doing anything?

i dont know, but i know there are people out there is doing this way.

but for me, i always tend to forgot about this.

doing things by my own way.

...

anyway, again its God's grace that holds me along the journey of life.

this grace, is too beautiful.

im actually not worthy of this grace.

but God didnt left me behind.

He has chosen me to be His child,

so He gave me His mercies.

yet, I always taken it for granted.

...

Lord, thanks for everything.

please forgive me.

i will learn to put down my own pride.

honour You with everything You gave me.

use me Lord, use me as you will.

...

"Take my five loaves and two fishes, do with it as You will.

I surrender.

Take my fear, my inhibitions; all my burdens my ambitions.

You can use it all.....

No gift is too small."

低头沉思

这几天，太多太多的东西在我的脑海里盘旋。

其实，我很佩服yen teng 和 samantha的坚强。

我在想，如果这几天的主角是我从前的他，我不知道我会变得怎样。

因此，纵然面对他的时候，心脏还会有一阵阵的抽痛；

看见他和她在一起的样子，我会鼻头一酸地别过脸，心脏就像有一把利刀刺进来。

可是，jen ruw的事情让我反思，既然他已选择了她，我早已烟消云散。

所以，我宁愿看着他们甜甜蜜蜜地在一起，我也不愿意这样的事情发生在他的身上。

因为，即使心有多痛，至少我还可以看到他笑，听到他的声音。

如果这一些消失了，我不知道我自己，会变得怎样。

此外，我相信很多人都会想这一个问题，如果一天我死了，别人会记得我什么？

我一向都不是个很有自信的人，当我想到这个问题，我的脑海里就出现，

“应该会很少人会记得我。”

也许吧！这么不起眼的我，应该不会有多少个人会记得我。

最后，我听见上帝细微的声音，

轻轻地在我耳边响起。

“别人不记得你，没关系。

我一定会记得你。”

耶稣，谢谢你的安慰。

Brother Jen Ruw

I will miss you.
















I remember that I owe you a strinking plastic key chain.
but you are gone before i could make one for you.

anyway, you will always be in our hearts.


see you again, in heaven.

We went gai gai~

We went to Pavilion to look for Paul Frank....

but, they are currently selling clothes of summer..

dont have much choice of jacket...

so.

we went home with empty hands =)

although,

we didnt buy anything,

but we had our dinner there..

this is rou's chicken katsu bento.

this is my fried rice set.

this restaurant is at the food republic, beside the western food.

but forgotten the name already. =p

<

rou, you look so small here... ><

>< =)

PS: 我刚刚才发现，原来我们都穿青色的衣服。这么巧哦！

1 more year

December 2011.

I will be waiting.

no longer emo.. XD

I was craving for cake.

so... i decided to bake one...

btw, my new oven has a fan function...

which my previous oven doesnt have that.

(Thank to Nic Kim for choosing this oven for me, now trying out this new function.)

i on the fan function when i first started to bake. so half way it looks like this.

V

the surface is so nice and smooth..

and the both side is balance...

i wanted to try out how it will be when i off the fan.

so, i off it.

when the cake is done, it became like this...

V

look so ugly.... ><

God is there

He is amazing, He is always awesome!!
Thank you my Lord, thanks for comfort me and stay with me by my side.

everytime when im emo and down, i will pay extra attentions to the lyrics of those songs that came into my mind. then i will automatic to sing it out.

those songs are the message that God is trying to tell me. sometimes I am stubborn, i will refuse to listen to what He had whisper to me. so now when i refuse to listen, He will tell me through songs.

He is just amazing because His words makes me surrender to Him willingly.

还是不甘

看见那个曾经坐在我的身边，握住我的手的人。
昔日的笑容，已不再为了我而展开。
你，刚刚决定要放开我的手，转过身，就去抓住另一个人的手。
这，不公平。

咒骂着自己，为什么还那么笨？
可是，骂了又怎样？
心脏还是会抽痛，一股酸酸的液体还是会从心里涌出来。

其实，假装是很辛苦的。
带着一幅我不在乎的面具，真的很辛苦的。
内心里有满满的在乎，但却无法表露出来。
这真得很痛苦的。
可是，谁能懂？
别人是无法体会的，只有耶稣了解我。

想象

开始在想象离开petra后的生活，发现少了大家，我的生活会很安静，极度平淡，没有色彩。

其实，我很享受有大家在一起的感觉，如果忽然少了大家，一切都会变得不同了。
如何不同？我无法用言语形容。

换个角度来思考，我们觉得好的东西，在上帝的眼里，未必是好的。
上帝有他自己的计划，无人晓得。
我不知道这一次的打击，是来自上帝还是来自撒旦。
但是我相信，我不会因此而被打败。
选择与否，我决定不参与其中。
如果在上帝的计划里面，我是不属于petra的话，那上帝自然有他自己的方式，让我离开。

离开后，也许我不会回到原来的地方，因为那里，我已经失去了归属感。
回去只是责任。参与服事只会是为了履行责任，爱的成分，早已烟消云散。
所以，失去了爱的成分的服事，在上帝的眼里，是不被喜悦的。
那我回去也没有用。

Labour with LOVE.

心

我狠不下心。
如果我需要离开，请教我如何离开。

如果我离开，我的生活会有180度的转变。
少了大家。我承受得起吗？

我自问，我不行。

为什么没有两全其美的方法？
我求了三年，到最后为什么还要选择？

对不起，原谅我的任性。我不想选择。




我不要选择。