yea, my mum know me well. she knew what im thinking when i have certain actions or words.
but, there are a lot of things that she dont know about me.
coz she get into emotions too easily.
well, im glad that God had sent me 4 angels.
they listened to me; they watched me cried; they heard all my emo words; they encouraged me.
dears, do you know today i was so so so wanted to leave here?
i find myself keep falling into satan's trap that makes me heartache.
Thanks for keep encouraging me all these while, four of you.
I can see God's love to me thru four of you, that God did not give up on me.
thats why He sent you all to me, to help me to go through this road of pain.
I wanted to go away, go far far away. to a place where have zero memories between me and him.
gone far far away, delete them in my contacts, friends list etc etc.
if i ever had a chance to do so,
will you guys support me?
will you all still love me as you used to?
i loved God, so i do not know how to live without Him even at the times i doubt about Him.
i loved Jesus, so i also don't know how to hold on to the faith if i run away from Him.
so do you all,
I loved you all, so i do not know how to leave this place.
i have a question for myself, am i hate them more than i love you all? or i love you all more than i hate them?
God sent me angels, is it worth to leave all my angels, to start a new life?
im sure people will tell me, God knows the best.
yea i believe, that is what i have been believing from the beginning.
i believe He want me to learn something.
keep me in your prayers, my dearest.
leave the land with memories or stay in it.
God knows the best.
He has a plan,
pray for me that i could be sensitive enough to know the plan at His timing.
I am not afraid to start anew in other place,
but im going to miss u all like crazy if i really go away and work at other places.
I always thank God for my angels, thanks for loving me as i am.
I love you, my angels.
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