Pain eyes....

Last night...
I cried...

My heart broke into pieces...



Should I continue give him chance?
Should I give up on loving him?

Or shall I say...

Should I continue LOVE him?
Although he might put me away...
Although he might love game or leisure more than me...


I dont know...
What should I choose?

Christmas!!!!!

Christmas coming.......

nothing much to say...

just feel very happy because we are celebrating Jesus's birthday..


=P

NEW phone~!

I WAN A NEW PHONE!!

with...
3G...
Bluetooth....
Camera...
MP3 player like SE W-series...
Nice design...

and the most important....
Price within 1000...


Anyone out there got any suggestion...
Could you please let me know??????????

Update!!

Last few weeks really tension..
first is sketch..
then next whole week busy with carnival - Glass deco...
finally is over...
will post some pictures later..

hehe...
finally i brought a modem..
now can online at home already..

NEW motherboard!!

I received a call from All IT yesterday...
she said Gigabyte had replace me a new motherboard..
at first i thought is old model..
but when i open and check..
it is the same model...
im so happy...
im wondering..
should i sell it with cheap price or keep for my self??
maybe you can give me some advise...

UPDATE...

my cpu is ok already...
but LCD monitor need to wait 3 more weeks....
cant online at home.. suffering...

now got 2 things sent for warranty..
motherboard and LCD monitor..

then need to save money to buy a new modem...



or anyone out there have an extra streamyx modem...
can sell me with cheap price????????

and anyone out there have an extra monitor...
no matter is LCD or CRT...
can borrow me few weeks???????


if u do..
please let me know...
thanks a lot....

Bad mood...

A thunder destroy everything!!!



I was away for 3 days..
back to seri kembangan..

then when i went back to pj..
i cant start my computer..

My cousin told me..
his pc oso sent for repair already..
because there was a heavy rain on saturday..
with a super thunder...

so i sent my cpu to a shop..
the person just call me..
motherboard and power supply is spoiled..

not these only..
yesterday..
i use my friend's laptop to online..
but cant..
coz my modem oso spoiled..
then i try to on the LCD monitor..
oso cant on...


my pc totally down!!!
im so poor already..
why all these happen..
why want me to use money..
where am i going to get money?

im soooooooooooooooo down!

Update!!

hmm...

exam finished!

enjoy...
go karaoke...

go pd...

go shopping..

watch drama..

watch movies..

play games...

After a week...

Start working...

monday to thursday..

wake up at 7am...

reach office about 8.30am...

start work at 9am..

lunch at 12pm...

finish work at 6pm..

reach home about 7.10pm..

this is my life during holiday...

hmmmmmm...

now wan to share some photos taken at pd..

A long day..

Today is a very long day..

~Morning~
wake up and saw the sms that he sent on 3am..
he reach home at 3am..
Im not angry that he went out with friends..
but i angry that he didnt tell me he went to cc..
I was waited so long for his sms that tells me he reach home safely..
He didnt drive to church yesterday..
I was so worry that why so late he havent reach home?
Ist no people fetch him home?
Ist accident?
I wait until i fall asleep..

This morning I was so dissapointed..
I wonder..
Am i really an important person to him?
Is that my care for him became a burden for him?
He didnt know im so worry about him..
He said he know he was wrong..
He ask for my forgiveness..
He want me to give him time to change..

~Afternoon~
EXAM!!!
I really dunno what can i score for this exam..
6 subjects..
I scare i screwed up everything..

~Night~
Ceres suddenly msn me and tell me that Isabel sent her a sms that full of negative thoughts...
So i sent a sms to isabel..
ask her what happened to her...

Later she online..
so i chat with her on msn..
I was so helpless..
I dunno how to help this friend..
She need more care and attentions..
I dunno how to help her to get rid of her negative thoughts..

I hope she really can understand what i told her..
I also hope that she can go through the hard time...

Lazy...

These few days..
I felt lazy..
No mood to study..
No mood to think about solutions..

Maybe is too stress?
Maybe is our love start to shake?

Why i cannot trust you the way i wanted to?
Why you cannot give me the confidence about our love?

You said..
Those are just memories..
I really want to believe that those are memories for you..
But its hard..
Not just because of the feeling you gave me..
But the things that i saw with my own eyes..
I was trying so hard to tell myself that..
I trust you..

I have to be honest to my feelings..
I dont want to lie in our relationship..
I told you my feeling..
You said you understand..
You promised that you will....

I hope you will do it..

Love - 1 Cor 13:4 - 8

Love is Patient..
Love is Kind..
Love does not Envy...
Love does not Boast..
Love is not Proud..
Love is not Rude..
Love is not Self-seeking..
Love is not Easily Angered..
Love keeps No record of Wrongs...
Love does not delight in Evil but Rejoices with the truth...
Love always Protects..
Love always Trusts..
Love always Hopes..
Love always perseveres...



Love NEVER fails...

These are Love that shown in the bible..
We always hope that we will get the Love above..
But we never think that we need to give Love to others too..

I know there are many people in my life..
need the love too...
neither do i...

But Jesus says...
Give is more blessed then receive..

So i have to learn..
how to give love to others...
to my parent..
my loved one..
my family members..
my friends..
my brothers and sisters...
like the way i love myself..

exam exam exam!

2day just finished my second subject..

now still feel relaxing..

but..

3rd subject is coming soon..

on next tuesday..

WHO CREATED EXAM!!

A Brand New Blog

This is my new blog..
i had many blogs..
but i didnt manage them well..
since my friends around had so much fun with their blog..
so i also want to join in..


so now..
i hope i can manage this well..
hehe..