A long day..

Today is a very long day..

~Morning~
wake up and saw the sms that he sent on 3am..
he reach home at 3am..
Im not angry that he went out with friends..
but i angry that he didnt tell me he went to cc..
I was waited so long for his sms that tells me he reach home safely..
He didnt drive to church yesterday..
I was so worry that why so late he havent reach home?
Ist no people fetch him home?
Ist accident?
I wait until i fall asleep..

This morning I was so dissapointed..
I wonder..
Am i really an important person to him?
Is that my care for him became a burden for him?
He didnt know im so worry about him..
He said he know he was wrong..
He ask for my forgiveness..
He want me to give him time to change..

~Afternoon~
EXAM!!!
I really dunno what can i score for this exam..
6 subjects..
I scare i screwed up everything..

~Night~
Ceres suddenly msn me and tell me that Isabel sent her a sms that full of negative thoughts...
So i sent a sms to isabel..
ask her what happened to her...

Later she online..
so i chat with her on msn..
I was so helpless..
I dunno how to help this friend..
She need more care and attentions..
I dunno how to help her to get rid of her negative thoughts..

I hope she really can understand what i told her..
I also hope that she can go through the hard time...

Lazy...

These few days..
I felt lazy..
No mood to study..
No mood to think about solutions..

Maybe is too stress?
Maybe is our love start to shake?

Why i cannot trust you the way i wanted to?
Why you cannot give me the confidence about our love?

You said..
Those are just memories..
I really want to believe that those are memories for you..
But its hard..
Not just because of the feeling you gave me..
But the things that i saw with my own eyes..
I was trying so hard to tell myself that..
I trust you..

I have to be honest to my feelings..
I dont want to lie in our relationship..
I told you my feeling..
You said you understand..
You promised that you will....

I hope you will do it..

Love - 1 Cor 13:4 - 8

Love is Patient..
Love is Kind..
Love does not Envy...
Love does not Boast..
Love is not Proud..
Love is not Rude..
Love is not Self-seeking..
Love is not Easily Angered..
Love keeps No record of Wrongs...
Love does not delight in Evil but Rejoices with the truth...
Love always Protects..
Love always Trusts..
Love always Hopes..
Love always perseveres...



Love NEVER fails...

These are Love that shown in the bible..
We always hope that we will get the Love above..
But we never think that we need to give Love to others too..

I know there are many people in my life..
need the love too...
neither do i...

But Jesus says...
Give is more blessed then receive..

So i have to learn..
how to give love to others...
to my parent..
my loved one..
my family members..
my friends..
my brothers and sisters...
like the way i love myself..

exam exam exam!

2day just finished my second subject..

now still feel relaxing..

but..

3rd subject is coming soon..

on next tuesday..

WHO CREATED EXAM!!

A Brand New Blog

This is my new blog..
i had many blogs..
but i didnt manage them well..
since my friends around had so much fun with their blog..
so i also want to join in..


so now..
i hope i can manage this well..
hehe..