I seriously HATE this

i seriously seriously hate this!!!
my schedule for saturday runs like this,
wake up at 7am, then 8am start tuition till 10am.
finish tuition need to rush to subang zi wen to teach diabolo,
start at 11am and ends at 12.30pm.
after that rush to church, normally need to stuck in jam,
when i reach cheras, already 1.30pm.
spend some time to take lunch, as i normally wont eat breakfast,
coz no time at all.
2.30pm till dinner time is for youth,
then if end early, need to find place to hang out until 11pm,
why? coz ned to fetch my aunt home.

i stay at seri kembangan, my aunt stay at pj sect 14,
everytime she work night shift, i have to purposely go mid valley to pick her up,
send her back to pj, then i go back to sk again.

yes, normally she finish work at 11pm.
but she never be punctual in 8 times over 10 times.
she never be early but late.
sometimes 15 mins, sometimes half an hour.
the worst i waited is until 12,30am.

today, after a schedule started from 7am, im very tired.
and she come out at 12am.
when i reach home, its already 12.45am.

you know what? i seriously hate this.
my aunt has 4 brothers and 2 sister,
2 brothers at penang, one stay in puchong, another one at serdang raya.
1 of the sister is my mum, the other one stay at the house opposite to mine.
exclude those at penang, i stayed at the place which most far from mid valley.
puchong that one, jus ned to pass by the old klang road, then will reach mv.
serdang jaya that one, jus ned to go into seremban highway, turn left then reach mv.
did anyone who stay nearer to mid valley willing to fetch her.
NO, the answer is NO. they are not WILLING.
SELFISH!!!!!!! selfish people.

what are they doing while i sitting in the car alone,
wait until 12am, they probably is in their sweet dreams.
my aunt came out at 12am, after i drop her,
she would take a hot shower n go to bed.
what is she doing when i reach home at 12.45am?
most probably is in her sweet dreams too.
what is the feeling when i reach home, saw my parent all sleeping already,
and i have to open door, do my stuff softly?
everyone else is resting at 12.45am, but me?
i just reach home, since i left home at 10am after the tuition.
i seriously fed up with this.

even weekdays, i got to rush back from office,
to buy dinner for my mum,
after that tuition from 8.30pm to 10pm.
after tuition, need to rush out to mid valley to pick my aunt,
then go back all the way to sk again.

my aunt pay me rm100 for the petrol for fetching her.
u know what?
the whole journey for me to go out from home, fetch her n go back again.
total need 53 km, each km cost me rm0.15,
which means 1 trip cost me rm7.95,
if 1 month i fetch her 15 times,
it will cost me rm119.25 worth of petrol.
sometime in a month, not only 15 times.
some months is even more times. ish!!!!!!!!!
this did not include the priceless hours that i spend in the car to wait for her.
so what? the rm100 so big meh!!!

my mum very 'yin sat' one,
when the time i ned to fetch my aunt, no matter how late i got home,
even like today, 12.45am, she heh also wont heh 1 sound.
but when the times i go out with friends, or when i go to church for practice,
11pm she will start calling me, non-stop call me, scolding me in the phone,
even treaten me if 12am i haven reach home, she will lock the door. the internal lock.

WHY? i really hate this, and i had fed up!
i wanted to run away from all these,
why would i have to do this?
why would i just to suffer while everyone is having sweet dreams on the bed?
WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really wan to walk away.
i really wan to escape.
i really wan to run.

family? u tot family all treat u real??
when my aunt earn money from share, n she wan to belanja makan,
everyone will come.
but when she work night shift, who will go to pick her up?
yin sat!! these people are all masked!
有福就同享，有难就不同担。

God, take away all these from me please!!!!
let me escape please!!!
im so tired, im tired of always do things for other people's good,
but not for my own good,
exchange all my resting time to trade for other people's sweet dreams.
in the end i jus bring myself suffer.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going to be crazy!!!!!!!